‘Brotherhood’ Kim Jong-wan, “I took my last breath with difficulty”

Group Nell Kim Jong-wan (42) sent a letter to his brother who passed away.

On the 28th, Kim Jong-wan posted a post expressing his longing for his brother. He began by saying, "I regretted the time I couldn't be with you because I was busy with work, and at the same time, I hoped that each second would feel like an hour when the doctor said I wouldn't feel any pain."

He continued, "Every time I tried to let go of my hand to go to the bathroom, I could feel the strength of my fingertips, even if only for a moment, and my younger brother's eyes that became slightly clearer when the music I was so proud of was playing, and the pain of being trapped in an immovable body. “Rather than feeling frustrated, I felt the will to stay together at least a little longer.”

He said, "It was difficult to express the gratitude and love that should have taken decades to express in just a few days, but I was overwhelmed with all kinds of emotions, but I sincerely hope that my heart was also contained in the last breath that I took so hard to breathe. “I will work harder. Please watch over me,” he said.

Meanwhile, Kim Jong-wan suffered a brother's death on the 14th. It is reported that the deceased had been suffering from a chronic illness since last year.

Below is Kim Jong-wan’s full text.

With the excuse of being busy with work, I crushly regret the times we couldn't spend together.
When the doctor said I wouldn't feel any pain, I hoped that each second would feel like an hour.
Every time I tried to let go of my hand to go to the bathroom, I felt the strength of my fingertips, even if it was just for a moment.
When my younger brother's music, of which I was so proud, played, I saw his eyes become slightly clearer,
Rather than the pain and frustration of being trapped in an immovable body,
Because I somehow felt the will to stay together just a little longer.
The gratitude and love that should have been expressed over decades,
Trying to express it over just a few days was so overwhelming that I couldn't get my mouth to speak.
I sincerely hope that my heart flows along with the last breath that was taken with such difficulty.
I'll work harder. Please watch.
Rest in peace brother.

Choi Ji-ye, Ten Asia Reporter wisdomart@tenasia.co.kr